I think i'm relapsing and i've never been more scared in my entire life...
 Doctors and therapist talked to my mom... They recommened that I go to another Impatient facility.. I can't go. I don't want to go. I won't go.

   No one understands me. I feel so alone. I just don't know anymore. Do I want to get healthy? I just don't know. If getting healthy means to gain weight I just can't go it. People say things are going to get worse before they get better.. But i'm going downhill fast. It's hell going through this with everyone telling you to eat even begging you to when you can't.. I'm not my self anymore. The universe has went in another direction. Which road should I take.. Which road do I want to take. Theres so many questions and not many answers.